I fight alcoholism to 8 months and then sabotaged
Sadly that sabotage, while not necessary, is part of your fight and you must fight through it.
Like I said, the fight is daily.
Also, the fight will likely never end.
It's not easy, but nobody can sabotage you no matter how hard they try, you will get back up as only you an decide your fate.
Take back control a fukk the liars and saboteurs.